By: Student Board Member, Ashlynn

Sometimes things happen that we can’t understand. There are circumstances that we wish we never had to go through. For me, it was losing a good friend to suicide. I was confused and angry and upset about why he would do this. I had spent his last day alive with him. I knew what he was going through and knew he was dealing with suicidal thoughts for a long time. I asked him how he was feeling. We talked about his mental state and what he was going through. He kept reassuring me that he was “doing really well" and was happy. He told me he wanted to be better. We talked about my birthday plans and the future. He smiled and laughed and looked happy. I loved him and he loved me.

When I found out he took his life the next day, I was so confused. I was devastated. I kept thinking to myself that he told me he was okay and he told me he was happy. Why would he do this now? After spending th