Mercy Soto C
Mar 17, 2017

3.16.17

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Life is hard, it truly is, but we learn from these periods, from this we can work to get better, to change. From this mindset, we must escape, but we must never forget it, this undeniably shapes us, and we need to let it make us better, we need to learn from it, it's not easy and it's not meant to be, and as much as it sucks, we must remember each day is a victory, every day we choose to continue, no matter how hard it gets, even just that choice makes it worth it, remember that friends.

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--optimistic-- I like it :)

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