I just want to relapse -- ive been clean for a while.. So it sucks that its coming on now... I dont know why but I just really want to.. i just MISS it... And... idk.. how can you not miss somthing like that? I loved it.. I hated it.. Its destroying me and I'm just so -- so sad... No ones here everyone's gone... Help? I don;t know if anyne will answer this but... Idk i thought it was worth a shot.