Needing help is not a sign of weakness or sickness. It's just a sign that you are unable to see any solutions in this one moment in time but that is different from the solutions not existing. If you have more in this one moment than you can cope with and you don't see any solution other than harming

If you like poetry, write one about how you feel. Then, give it to someone you trust. Poetry is a window into the soul after all, the person will ask questions (probably) that will open up into discussion.