December 25, 2018

It is Christmas Eve, little kids are running around, trying to make themselves tired so that they sleep through the night. Everyone prepares for Santa's arrival. "Put the cookies on the fireplace, Did you pour the milk?  Don't forget a carrot for Rudolf! Where is Santa...

September 21, 2018

He had curious brown eyes, chubby cheeks, and dark hair. He was probably about seven or eight years old. I will call this boy Nate. This little boy changed my outlook on life today.  He did not intend to, of course, but he did in the best of ways.

Nate is autistic--or...

May 28, 2018

I grew up with bed time stories. Did you? As a little girl, I loved the pictures. The way the colors were mixed to perfection, in order to build an image that told the story-- even without words. As I grew older I fell in love with the sound of the pages whispering as...

April 4, 2018

How do you fight a war against yourself, and live to tell the tale??? 

How can someone fight a war by themselves? 

The war against my mind started with a loneliness that cannot be explained nor described.  A desire for someone, anyone to hold me, and tell me it woul...

December 18, 2017

It was homecoming 2017, I was so happy--  healthy.  Finally, after years of constant struggles, my life was not overcome by darkness; I was sitting with new friends watching a football game, the next night was the homecoming dance and everything was perfect.  I was a n...

October 27, 2017

The day I took this picture, October 27 2016, was the day I decided I wanted to stop cutting.  The uncontrollable losses I'd gone through, finally seemed to be mending themselves.  I thought my battle with depression was finally over.  I walked along that path, my last...

October 7, 2017

Watercolor is a beautiful form of art, I have to admit I am not very good at it, but I love watching the paint run down the page like raindrops. I love the way the colors accidentally blend and create another color.  I love how salt repels the water and creates an all...

September 2, 2017

Dear Little One,

There is no monster under your bed, I will protect you always, no monster can harm you!  See?  No monster in the closet, and no monster under the bed.  You are safe my child, close your eyes -- I will sing you a lullaby.

Dear innocence-- I love...

July 24, 2017

Suicide.  The first questions asked are --

Who, what, when, where, why, how?

We have some answers, we know the who, the what, the when, the where, and the how, but why?  Sometimes we don't have the answer to  WHY.  

But for some reason... Whenever someone mentio...

July 22, 2017

"If they say

Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do"

Once upon a time, there was a l...

July 14, 2017

Love is strange... for some, love is often filled with joy and laughter, other times it's laced with despair and lies. Many of us would agree that love should be patient -- should be kind... But what happens when what we thought was love, raises it's hand aga...

May 19, 2017

Want to know a secret?  Careful -- no one else can hear.  

Want to know a secret?  Let me whisper it in your ear.

Want to know a secret? Careful no one else can hear.

Want to know a secret?? It's my deepest darkest fear.  

Want to know a secret? Careful no one else ca...

April 25, 2017

Hello.  My name is Macy Rae -- and I was depressed.  

What are you?  

Hello.  My name is Macy Rae -- and I was alone .

What are you? 

Hello.  My name is Macy Rae -- and I was trapped . 

what are you? 

Hello. My name is Macy Rae and I was a cutter.

What are you? 


April 22, 2017

Recently people have begun to ask me if I based my Project off of the popular TV series, and novel, Thirteen Reasons Why (despite the fact that I only heard of the show a few weeks ago).  I would like to say that I disagree with the messages of 13 Reasons Why.  Do...

April 8, 2017

 -For all the lovely women-

Have you ever done something so humiliating, so awful that you believe you will never be able to face the world again? The mistake of accidentally waving back to someone who was waving at someone else entirely.  We've all done it. If you...

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